Dear X

I suppose this serves as a "Dear John letter" haha it's a little 
too late to give this, but hey, I've postponed the act of releasing
the words, so here it is, closure...

Dear _______,

The other day I heard this song and a thought entered my mind, unbidden. So it has 
been a while since the memory of you has crossed my mind. Ha! It has been what? 
three or four years since we last spoke, I can't say that we parted on good terms, actually,
I think we just parted, period. 
I must say, I have done a lot of growing up in the years of your absence, not that you
contributed to any change in my life other than disenchanting me from the idea of finding
"Mr Perfect" (actually I have, I thought you ruined it for me) I suppose this is a little bit
 of gratuitous criticism thrown your way for all the times I spent pondering on the idiocy 
of the male population. (no offense)
So, what do I have to say to you? I have contemplated the idea of sending you a detailed
inventory of your faults and transgressions in the short amount of time that I spent in
 your company... but that would be unfair I suppose- in all honesty you weren't that 
horrible. Just wildly juvenile, intoxicated with the idea of your youth, the open doors 
of the world and everything it offered for you. Gallivanting around like some pompous 
Casanova- Debauchery was your favorite pastime. 
I am going to step down from my pulpit now, I forgot that I'm not doing this to deliver
an allocution of your rather colorful past. Why am I doing this again? Ah closure...

Alright, thank you. There, I said it.
If it weren't for your blatant manhandling of my impressionable uh..
heart? (okay, let's say childish mind) I wouldn't have learned the greatest lesson that 
allowed me to be more wary of individuals like you. Who pride themselves with their
prowess in deluding unsuspecting females like myself, into falling for your rather primitive
charm. Yes, seriously, do you get your technique from some "How Win Her Over" book
that has been passed down from one  generation to the next?, because in my humble
 opinion, your technique lacks finesse.  "No" doesn't secretly mean "Yes" and "Go away"
 is not code for "Take me I'm yours". 
Again, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. For a while, it was  like I was drowning 
and now, I've finally come up for air. I've grown up, and I have discarded my fanciful
notions of finding "Mr Right". Let me sum up my new take on men, with the following
quotation. 

Give me a man who is man enough to give himself just to the woman 
who is worth him. 
If that woman were me I would love him alone and forever.
(Casanova 2005) 

Regrettably, that man wasn't you.  I can't  speak for that man that you have 
become NOW, I'm describing the man I knew back THEN. 
You were kind, funny, charming, and caring. You did a lot of good things, and a few
rotten deeds, but perhaps the most appalling thing you did was to underestimate me...
 I nipped the farce in the bud, before it bloomed into the titanic fiasco I knew it would 
eventually become. I was smart enough to walk away. Oddly enough, that's when you
decided to "show a leg" and "jump through flaming hoops" tsk tsk.
Men... what is it about realizing the value of something when it isn't in your possession
anymore? Oh, and the whole wanting-something-you-can't-have. Is it just some 
depraved game to you? 
Perhaps not all of you, just the ones who are late in the evolutionary process. 
The ones who still think they have to  swing their clubs in the air to show their 
superiority and drag women by their hair to their caves. 
 
Anyway, that was ancient history. In the words of Neyo:

The mistake i made is clear

(we never shoulda been together)

Thats the reason youre not here

(I know that I can do much better)

Not a single salty tear

Not a feeling in my chest

Baby im feeling no stress

Im too fly to be depressed...


I hear you have someone new now- take care of her. 

 
Oh, and here's the song I heard by the way... 


We've been here before
We'll be here again so go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again
We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
It could have been different
It could have all been the same
But now I'm standing at your front door, singing,

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me, oh
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

Congratulations
You left me a little jaded and rejected
And so I lost it again
You chew me up, you throw away
As I continue to pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
I guess it's never different
I guess it's all the same
So now I'm bloodied by my fist, clenched, swinging

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me, oh
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

I was a name across your lips
It's time to spit me out
I play the game; when my heart rips
It's time to hear me out
(Never do without)

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me
See, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

(Will you fall
We'll be here again
So go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again)

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again, all again
Lose it all again

Song Title: Fall Back Into Me
Artist: David Cook